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February 18th, 2007

09:21 pm - venting This is a rant. I'm pissed. Don't read if you don't want to hear me bitching. Garrrrrrrgh. Yes, that's a word. I made it up and it's a word now. Sometimes Ivan frustrates the hell out of me. I know, I sound like a broken record. Sometimes what he says SOUNDS LIKE "let's get back together, I miss you, I love you blah blah blah" and then I ask him about it and he's like "what? I don't want to get back together! You're a stupid skanky whore and I hate you and I want to rip your heart into tiny little pieces and stomp on them, then spit on them, then take a giant stinky poo on them. I would SO much rather have random sex with a girl I just met who has a child and who really is quite ugly and skanky." She really is ugly. I'm not making that up. She looks like someone smashed in her face. But she's thinnish. And she's willing. Only one of those things matters to him. Can you guess which one? (ding ding ding, YES it's the WILLING part!) I have the lowest self esteem on the face of the planet (or at least the lowest of anyone I've ever known) and even I think I deserve better than how he's been acting. I just don't understand what went wrong. How much of what he told me was a lie? What can I believe NOW? Can I believe anything he says? He says now I'm the only woman he can see himself marrying and the only woman he wants to end up with and have children with blah blah blah. He said he plans to come back. I asked him about that today and he said "it's just like I told you" to which I replied "what did you tell me?" He said "we'll see what happens. Only time will tell if someday we'll be together again." That is NOT what he said earlier. IN FACT, when earlier I mentioned the trip to Rome that he would have to take me on to prove that he was serious (which really is sort of a joke, I don't really expect that.) he said he would JUST AS SOON AS HE COULD AFFORD IT. Hmmmmmm...contradictions anyone? What did I do wrong? WHY would he rather go to SEX PARTIES (shudder) and screw random whores than be with me? I am not THAT bad of a person. EVEN I KNOW THAT. I'm a little chunky, but I have an ok face, I'm fairly nice, and I treated him like a fucking king. I am fairly smart, I have a good job, people tell me my biggest fault is that my heart is TOO big. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????? If anyone else had ever done this to me or treated me this way, he would have immediately offered to kick their ass for me. He would have told me to put it out of my mind, that I deserve better, that this person was just a stupid asshole. WELL....? WHY ARE YOU DOING IT THEN????? End of rant. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: sobs

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January 20th, 2007

07:01 am - and Dahmer (my fishie) just died. :( RIP "Jenny and Ivan" August 15, 2004 - January 19, 2007. Breaking up hurts. Someone kiss my heart all better please. Current Mood: dead Current Music: tears

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November 15th, 2006

11:22 am I've had my cranky pants on for at least week. I haven't been sleeping. I'm upset. I'm angry. I'm hurt. I want to throw things. I want to cry. I'm too tired to do either of those things. My blood sugar has been off-the-wall low. I can't seem to keep it up for more than an hour at a time. I bought myself flowers. Maybe that will cheer me up. *sigh* Current Mood: murderous Current Music: nothing

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November 7th, 2006

12:10 pm Happy Election Day!!!!! I'm so glad all the stupid political advertisements will be over today. At least for a while. Did anyone else see that commercial to elect "Relish Packet?" Damn, that was funny. It played out like a normal political ad and then ended up with "vote for Relish Packet" and something about paying attention to who you're voting for. It was hilarious. Yep. I laughed my fool ass off. Other than that, not a whole lot's been going on. I was sicker than a dog a few days ago. It was horrible. I haven't felt that awful in a while. I shouldn't have gone to work, but I will be terminated if I miss one more day of work for any reason (it's part of the good-for-nothing union contract.) Sooooooo, it was off to work I went. Until my fever reached 102 and I started shaking, at which point they said I could go home, fudging a little on the paperwork that said WHY I clocked out early. They said I went home because they didn't need me, rather than because I was expelling little puppies and kittens and other snackables out of varying orifices. My coworkers are fabulous. They helped me out big time, doing as much of my job as they could for me, wrapping me in warm blankets, etc. I super love my new shift and the wonderful people who work nights. We have potlucks all the time, we have all sorts of inappropriate conversations, we laugh until we cry. It's great. Plus it's REALLY nice to FINALLY be full-time there. Even if it means I'm working 7 days in a row. *urgh* Today was day 4. Only 3 more left! Moving on. So, my vision insurance... They suck. They keep dropping me, saying I'm not covered. Saying I don't exist. I don't know what their problem is. Both last year AND this year I've had to pay out of pocket for all my vision care and hope they will eventually reimburse me. I'm not amused. I finally ordered my glasses today. Not covered. Of course. Oh, and they will only cover the CHEAPEST lenses that are possible. Which would be fine if they were willing to put the amount of money that the cheapest lenses cost toward a nicer, thinner lens. But they won't. It's either the cheapest lens or I have to pay full price. It would be ok, except that I have vision that falls somewhere between 'Bat Shit Blind' and 'Oh My God Did I Just Kiss My Boyfriend Or My Grandma?' Yeah. Very very limited as to what type of frames I can get with vision like that, because the lenses that the insurance will cover are too thick to be supported by normal frames. Grrrr. Anyway, I found cute frames that will support my exhorbitantly humongous lenses and all is well. Nice way to wrap up a bitch session about insurance companies, no? Except that the bitches at the vision center tried to charge me $48 EXTRA for some bogus "high Rx fee." Because my eyes are SO bad, they were going to charge me an extra FEE to even MAKE MY GLASSES. Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame. They took the fee off. Thank god. With the stupid insurance company not paying, it was already over $200 just to get my damn glasses and contacts ordered. No way was I paying an extra $48 just because I should have drowned in the gene pool! The bitches. Well anyway. It's just about bedtime. The Schwan man will be here in a couple of hours and I promised him I would try to be awake this time. ;) I *heart* the Schwan man!!! Goodnight!! Current Mood: mellow Current Music: "Who Invited You" The Donnas

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October 26th, 2006

01:12 pm Blah blah blah blah blah. I can't sleep!! I know, I know. Strange for me. ;) I went to bed around 9:30 this morning and woke up at noon. I hope I get some more sleep 'cause tonight is The Night! Tonight is the night my mommy and I are watching THE LITTLE MERMAID!! *supah prance* Sooo super exciting!!!! Yay!! Tonight was SUPPOSED to be the night of the HIM concert. Until they cancelled. :( If they HADN'T, I would be on the road on the way to Iowa right now, all gothed out and sexy, totally rocking with Amy. Wooohooo! Gotta love Iowa. *gag* But I DO gotta love HIM, so I guess Iowa is legal. *shudder* Iowa. Ick. Has anyone played Second Life? I just don't get it. I made my character and prance around the world and stuff, but what's the point? What is there to do?? Someone who knows stuff, help me! Is it really supposed to be that boring? Everyone else seems to love it, so there must be something I'm missing. I'll give it another couple of shots before I call it completely retarded. If you're on it, look me up. My name is Squirrel Maidstone. Ok, well off to try to sleep some more. Oh! Oh! Oh! I got my phone finally. So if you want to be super cool with me, let me know and I'll give you my Top Secret Phone Number Of Death. Yes, death. Or...something. Current Mood: cold

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October 15th, 2006

03:21 am - Emmy's the hottest person I know. *streeeeeeeeeeeeeetch* Good morning. I'm exhausted. I'm not sure why I'm awake. I think it's because when Ivan came to bed around 1 am, he turned off the electric blanket and I froze to death. So now I'm a dead Livejournal ghostie haunting my own journal...or...something....yeah. Working full time nights one place and part time days another sucks. Since they don't coordinate schedules and all that, I have approximately 3 hours of sleep to last me 3 shifts. This is going to happen every week. Urrrgh. Luckily it will only be one or two days a week that I will be THAT sleep-deprived. However, I'm not sure I'll be safe on the roads.... And I live a long way from work... *bites nails* T-Mobile is being a bunch of bitches. Well, the people are really great and sweet, but I don't know what's going on with my phone. I'm starting to get pissed. I ordered it 3 weeks ago and got it 2 weeks ago. I sent it back the next day because it didn't work and I still haven't gotten my replacement. The Customer Care center told me I had to track the shipment back to the defective receiving place and then once it got there, I could call for a replacement. I did this, but was tranferred to the sales department and THEY told me I shouldn't have waited and they hoped they could still get me a new phone, blah blah blah. Turns out they could (good 'cause I woulda popped a cap in their bitchasses) but the tracking number they gave me doesn't work. I just called the customer care and they have no record of my new phone being sent. Grrrrrrr.... So I have to call the sales again when they're open, which obviously is not right now or I wouldn't be bitching about it. Who am I kidding? I'd be bitching about it anyway. ;) But I would have some answers, I hope. And then I wouldn't just be whining that I don't know anything about my new phone. I kinda need to know when it's going to arrive since I need to sign for it and all that. I'm guessing I'll need to sleep in the living room since it will arrive in the middle of the night (for me, since I work overnights) and I'll most likely be the only person home. Well that was a fascinating entry, no? I should go back to sleep. It's 25 degrees. Brrrrr!! Perfect weather to curl up with a fuzzy blankey and my puppy and watch some TV while I fall asleep. But not on the couch. *ahem* Because I would never let Chewy on the couch. heh. *ahem ahem* (I hope she bought that!) Ok, must sleep. I work 58.5 hours this week. I need to get my sleep in now or I won't get any. Current Mood: where's my phone? Current Music: watching something about killer elephants

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October 9th, 2006

09:19 pm Well, the past couple of days have been different. My car died. Dead. Deceased. Etc. Ok, it's not DEAD but it sure as hell doesn't work either. I got stuck at work. For those who remember, I work in Crabsby which is about 45 minutes from my house. Yeah. Oh well. The tow home cost a bit. Ouch. The repair is going to cost a bit. Not a ton though 'cause Ivan is fixing it for me. :) I'm using his car until Friday when I get paid and can buy the part he needs to replace. His car is. Uhm. Yeah. We'll just say it's not mine and leave it at that. I started overnights a few days ago. I love it love it love it!! The hospital is sooo different at night. And the nurses are all younger and fun and not crotchety. Yay! And the patients are sleeping which is nice. hehe. Aw crap. I gotta go shower so I can go to work. I have more to say, but Ivan is threatening to get in the shower first and he takes even longer than me. xoxoxo Love, Me Current Mood: content Current Music: something by savage garden

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October 6th, 2006

02:04 am My big phone adventure has been delayed. :( I got my brand new uber cell phone/camera/MP3 player/super cool thing today. Yeah. It's defective. I had to send it back. They won't send my replacement until they receive this one. *sad* Oh well. I'll get over it. The customer service at T-Mobile is the best I've ever had. I talked to about 5 different people and they were all very friendly and helpful and NICE. I couldn't believe how sweet they all were. That's all. So if you were expecting a call or a text from me with my new number and didn't get it, that's why. I don't hate you. Ok, well maybe I hate you a LITTLE. ;) j/k!! Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: watching baseball (oh. yay.)

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October 5th, 2006

01:45 am It has been requested that I update. Even though the person who requested it hasn't updated in FIVE DAYS!! *ahemahem* Moving on. So, my weekend. It was sweet. My family had a girls' weekend. It was me, my mom, my grandma, and my two aunts. We had a BLAST!!! We went down to Mystic Lake Casino and stayed in super nice rooms there, gambled, played games (I lost at every single one!), played Bingo, talked, and just had a super time together. Though I did kind of think it was funny that I was spending my Saturday night in a Bingo hall with my grandmother. ;) Sunday my mom and I went to the Mall of America and spent quite a few hours (and waaay too much money). I got HIM everything. A HIM purse, a new HIM shirt, heartagram earrings... I was contemplating the HIM shoelaces, but I really like my Happy Bunny ones. Though they're all frayed and too short. So maybe next time. heh. The most fun thing I did at the mall was Build-A-Bear. I'd never done it before. I have a stuffed horsie-princess named Chloe that was made for me at Build-A-Bear, but I'd never made my own. So, Miranda Jean Bear has now joined my family. And my overcrowded bed. :) She's soooooo freaking cute!!! She's a light brown fluffy soft bear with a heart-shaped purple patch on her chest and a few other patches. $1 from every bear of her style sold is donated to kids' cancer research, hence the patches. She's sooooooo soooooo sooo cute!!! I dressed her in pink jammies and pink fluffy fuzzy sparkly slippers. *prance* She's soooo cute!! Ok. I need a life. Or I need to grow up. Eh. Whatever. I'm me. Sooo that was my weekend. I actually had to work 8 hours on Saturday and drove down to the cities to meet my family AFTER work. Which kind of sucked, since I was tired and the sun was in my eyes while I was trying to find my exits on the interstate, but that's ok. I still made it, so that's what matters. I must have caught something in the germy casino (I wonder how often they clean the slot machines?) because I was sooooo sick on Monday and Tuesday. It SUCKED. And I guess I've given it to Amy and my dad. :( SORRY! It sucks, but it doesn't last long! I'm ALMOST all better and it's only day 3!! That's almost unheard of for me. I get EVERY bug and they always last FOREVER. Yesterday I was supposed to go to an ICP concert with Amy and Ivan but I was too sick to go. So I sulked around the house and slept and puked and watched TV and was bored out of my mind. I actually don't know if I would have had a good time even if I had felt well. Their music is ok (not my favorite), but I guess they threw TONS and TONS of Faygo (a pop brand) all over the audience. Not just a little or in isolated clumps of people. Everyone was soaked through. I hate hate hate HATE HATE HATE wet clothes! I cannot stand to have my clothing wet at ALL! It drives me nuts. And sticky wet clothing? I would have been one unhappy camper. Speaking of concerts, have I mentioned that the HIM concert I was looking forward to FOREVER and already had road-trip plans for (including hotel and everything picked out) was CANCELLED??? I was PISSSSSSSSSSSED. Oh well. I still *heart* HIM. And at least I don't have to go to Iowa now. I really hate Iowa. I'll just have to wait till the next concert. *waiting* Is it here yet? Is it? Huh? I'm getting a cell phone tomorrow. YAY!! I haven't had one for damn near a year. I miss having one. I already ordered it and it's all set up. It's coming UPS tomorrow!!!!! *prance* I miss text messaging. I'm a total text whore. Tomorrow I start my full time status at the hospital. Tomorrow is my last 2nd shift (2:30-11) and then I will be full-time overnights (11-7:30). I am sooo stoked. I love overnights!!! Even if I'm working 7 of them in a row. *urgh* Ok this is way too long. xoxoxo Love, Me Current Mood: excited Current Music: watching "The Prosecutors"...what? I'm a nerd!

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September 29th, 2006

12:23 am I take part of my last entry back. It has been pointed out to my that my hair is NOT black. It's dark brown with a red tint. I rather like it, actually. I considered taking a picture of it today while I was actually dressed and made up with my hair all nice (well, as nice as it gets), but I was just too lazy/busy. So the pictures I took right after I dyed it last night will have to suffice. Viewer beware. I'm wearing my jammies and have absolutely NO makeup on. *shudder* Perhaps I'll take a picture of how it looks when it's done up and my makeup is on and I look semi-human. Maybe. Eventually. Not tonight. Current Mood: blah

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September 28th, 2006

01:51 am Uhmmm...uhmmm...ummmmmm... Remember my hair-dye fiasco a month or so ago? Where I ended up looking like I had a stoplight on my head? Well, it faded a little and I ended up loving it. Soooooooo.... I thought I'd go with red again. A red that's not quite as dark. Sooooooo.... I picked out a color called "light reddish brown" and called it good. I dyed it... and... uhmm... The box lied. Not only is my hair NOT light reddish brown it is NEITHER red NOR brown. It is black. Yes. BLACK. I now have black hair. It doesn't look as bad as I thought it would. Probably not something I would have done on purpose though. Hm. Current Mood: amused Current Music: "Snap Your Fingers, Snap Your Neck" -Demon Hunter

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September 27th, 2006

01:18 am Well I'm finally feeling a bit better. I've been able to eat for the past few days. I get pretty nauseated afterward and get a little heartburn but it's much better. I lost about 3 pounds but gained back 2. :( Oh well. They'll go away eventually. They always do. Gain and lose, gain and lose... In other news, I got the full-time overnight position at the hospital. I'm really excited about it! I start next week, so that's a pretty good deal. I just don't know what I'm going to do about Target. I really don't want to quit. I like it there. I guess I'll see how it goes working days at Target and nights at the hospital, and if need be, see if Target can cut my hours. I don't want to quit, but I need the $$$ from the hospital. We'll see what happens. Let's see....what else has been happening? Today was Schwan day. I *heart* the Schwan man!! I baked him a cake. I'm such a dork. I feel sort of "off" tonight but I think it's just the nausea. It feels like I'm really worried about something but I can't think of anything I'm worried about. So I'll just blame it on stomach troubles. Oh, here's some good news! Ivan's G.I. bill went through and he will start getting his checks next week, which means he can quit his crappy job!!! Yay!! Then he can concentrate on school. Or play more computer games... Who knows which. His job sucks. I wonder what he'll do with all his extra time besides play on his computer? I don't know whether we'll have MORE or LESS time together since I'll be working 11pm-7:30 am... I'm HOPING to sleep right after work so I can get up in the late afternoon/early evening and have all evening/night with him and the rest of my family. I just hope I'm not so wound up after work that I can't sleep right away. I'm taking a break from the Pogo badge I'm working on. I'm trying to get 10,000 tokens in Stack 'Em which is one of the most mindless, boring, and stupid games ever. It's KIND of cute with the little square barnyard animals and everything, but it gets old quickly. I didn't get either weekly challenge this week. Tooooo hard. I DID get my personal challenge though, with an hour to spare. ;) Ok, that was a long enough break. I can face the mindlessness again. :) xoxoxo Love, Me Current Mood: bored Current Music: watching The X-Files

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September 23rd, 2006

02:50 am Well I have happy things and not-so-happy things. Nothing tragic, of course. More of an annoyance than anything. But regardless... It's my diary so I'll say what I want. :P Happy thing: I will most likely be getting a full-time overnight position at the hospital which will not only suit my lifestyle better (night owl!) but also allow me to pay ALL my bills ON TIME withOUT worries. AND POSSIBLY pay for college next semester OUT OF POCKET. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I get it. The way it works is that the position is posted on a union bulletin board and any union members can sign a "posting" for it. Whoever has the most seniority gets it. I only know of one other person who signed it and I have a year's seniority on her. If I get this job it will be the ONLY good thing my union has ever done for me. ;) I deserve it after the insane amounts of money they take from me. Unhappy thing: I'm NOT sick but I'm not feeling well either. I'm feeling rather miserable. Whenever I eat something, I immediately get what I'm assuming is heartburn (it doesn't have the same symptoms as heartburn but I don't know what else it could possibly be) and I get nauseated. The nausea and heartburn last for several hours. This happens occassionally, but it's been constant for the past three days. I've eaten next to nothing. Which is bad enough as it is, but I'm hypoglycemic and I have doctors orders that say I need to eat every 2-4 hours. I'm trying to control it with juice and sugary pop. I still feel HUNGRY but I don't get SHAKY or feel like I will pass out. I came home in tears tonight because I was SOOO hungry and just couldn't face the pain and nausea that would come from eating. I decided that I would ONLY eat something if it was something I was REALLY craving. Because maybe THEN it would be worth it. So I settled on french fries. Well, the only place open was Perkins and no one would go with me and I wasn't about to go alone on a Friday night at the same time the bars are all letting out. After crying and shaking and having juice do nothing to fix it, I ate a piece of pizza and a piece of cake at home. If I didn't think it would hurt terribly (the heartbutn), I would go throw it up. I feel just awful now. Grrrr! At least I'm not shaky anymore though. Oh well. There are worse things, right? I have a funny work story, but I probably can't share it here. I can just say that a stereotype has been completely confirmed. Or rather, what I thought was a myth. hehe. *prance* And in OTHER happy news that I forgot to mention, I did neonatal care today. I worked in the nursery with a newborn, givng her her very first bath and taking her tiny little footprints and everything. SOOOOOO cute!! I *heart* babies!!! And YESTERDAY at work, I got to rock a newborn for 3 whole hours while the mom and dad took a break from the baby. :) I was STOKED! So that's happy, right? That makes it worth the fact that I want to rip out my own stomach/esophagus area now, right? Ok I'm going to try to go to sleep now. Wish me luck!! xoxoxo Love, ME Current Mood: owie Current Music: watching "Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets"

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September 21st, 2006

01:26 am - Bike To Life I had originally planned to make an entry here detailing more of my boring life. Work, relationships, friendships, more work, etc. HOWEVER. I have found an extremely worthy cause that NEEDS to be plugged. I don't believe I have ever plugged any sort of cause on here before, so you KNOW it's important. ;) BIKE TO LIFE is actually an aquaintance of mine's doing. (Amy's little sister's boyfriend) Four days before he was scheduled to leave for his freshman year of college, he decided to do something huge. Something to make a difference. He had his dorm all set up, his loans in place, he was all registered and packed...and then it hit him. So was born Bike To Life. He is biking around the United States to raise money for kids with cancer. The journey begins tomorrow. He's taking a bus from here (Brainerd, MN) to Seattle and then biking from there, around the west coast, down along the border, then up to Maine, before coming back up here to Minnesota. If you can donate, even a dollar or two, PLEASE DO SO! There is merchandise on the website if you want a shirt or pin or whatever, or you can just donate. Or if you can't, please think about plugging it on your own site. Ok, that was my public service message. Go about your daily business. No more plugging from me. Current Mood: inspired Current Music: watching "Mythbusters"

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September 14th, 2006

01:18 am - Two of my favorite things rolled into one!! Mwahaha...My Vikings scrubs that I ordered have been shipped!! They should be here within a few days!!! I'm SOOO stoked!! *prance* Scrubs = awesome. Vikings = awesome. VIKINGS SCRUBS??? PRICELESS!! As if my patients didn't already think I was strange enough...hehe. Ok, now that I'm over THAT. *ahem* Today is day 3 of 4 OFF!! It's been fabulous. I've been getting up earlier than I do when I need to go to work which is kinda weird, but whatever. I'm nesting hardcore. I even made the Schwan man come in, sit down, and eat some homemade fresh-out-of-the-oven from scratch cake and a big glass of milk. hehe. That's kinda sad. The Schwan man is cool though. He gave me free watermelon sherbet (my favorite!) for my birthday. Mwahahah. I haven't baked any bread yet this week, but I will be baking a few loaves tomorrow. I've been mostly cleaning and cooking/baking. I made more hot spiced apple cider and cooked an annoyingly tedious dinner tonight. Which turned out like ASS, but that's alright. Oh, and I mowed the lawn. There's something wrong with the mower. It's rather strange. *shudder* I think it's possessed. Speaking of which, after I turned OFF the TV today, it turned back on. A little creepy. But not too much. Ok. Well, my book is calling. I'm reading "Wuthering Heights." SOOOOO good!! Much go read now. xoxoxo Love, ME Current Mood: NESTING! Current Music: watching "Mythbusters"

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September 10th, 2006

02:33 am Mwahahah I had almost an entire day off today. NOT entirely, but MOSTLY. I KNEW there weren't enough patients to warrant me going in to the hospital today and I figured the charge nurse had tried to call me to put me "on call" but hadn't been able to get through because SOMEONE who likes to TALK had called (my grandma!). So I called HER and she said, no, COME IN! We need you! So I got there. There were so many of us, I didn't even get to take one real set of vitals. Well, I took one on an outpatient who came in to get a shot of Neulasta. But that's it. Outpatients don't count. ;) I pretty much sat around and picked my butt for two and a half hours before they sent me home. It's ok though. They pay me a decent wage to pick my butt. You don't get a lot of $$ for that skill nowadays! So on my way home (it takes almost as much time to make the round-trip to work and back as I spent actually AT work!), I stopped at Target to get my schedule and the purse store to get this wallet I totally needed. Yep. I've got the best purse and the best wallet in town now. I freaking rock. Came home, tried to nap, was ALMOST asleep when Ivan came in to ask me what I was doing. Pretty sure it was obviously I was SLEEPING and I told him so. Me: What do you MEAN what am I'm doing? I'm SLEEPING! Him: Oh. So whatcha doing? Me: TRYING TO TAKE A NAP! Him: How about after that? Me: SLEEPING SOME MORE!!! WHAT DO YOU WANT?? Yeah. It's not a good idea to wake me up. I'm a bitch. The rest of the household (minus Ivan, who went to a party) commenced the watching of a home video taken earlier in the day AT TOP VOLUME WITH MUCH COMMENTARY. So, the sleep was a no-go. But that's ok. After I got over my crabbiness, I went to the grocery store and made some fabulous hot spiced apple cider. It's the PERFECT weather for it! It's all cold outside (frost advisory!), and I'm inside with my favorite mug (ok, it's a teacup), cuddled up in a blanket finishing up Reading Lolita In Tehran which, btw, you should all read because it's excellent. I gotta get it read NOW NOW NOW 'cause it's due back to the library on Monday. YIKES! MONDAY is my REAL day off. I'm totally stoked. You know, I think before Ivan left, he asked me if I wanted to do something tonight. I probably said no. I wish I hadn't. NEVER ask me anything while I'm trying to sleep. You will get a bitchy "NO!" pretty much no matter what. I miss spending time with him. I'm asleep when he leaves in the morning and he's asleep when I get home at night. :( Ok, well I shall call the boy and wish him a good night (aka sending wishes that when he passes out it's NOT on a hard surface and that he DOESN'T end up PUKING). Goodnight, all! The book beckons. I must heed its call. xoxoxo, Love ME Current Mood: chilled Current Music: "Salt In Our Wounds" -HIM

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September 6th, 2006

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August 30th, 2006

03:15 am - boobies It's no secret that I have massive amounts of mammaries. Huge boobies, if you will. I finally broke down today and bought one of those "big boob" bras. You know, the ones that are SO massively supportive and hugely gigantical that the stores hide them away in little boxes so "normal" people won't die from shock at seeing bra cups that are bigger than most people's heads... Yeah. So I bought one. Fits nicely. Even has "magic ring supports" on the bottom, which roughly translates to "little gill-looking things in case you are underwater for long periods of time." I TRIED to explain to the makers that, though I may have giant boobies, and I may be a little bit overweight, I am NOT a whale and NOT in need of an underwater breathing apparatus. Though, I'm not sure if they know or not that whales are MAMMALS and breathe oxygen from the air just like humans, but that's beside the point. *ahem* So I know have lovely little gills on my ta-tas. Quite hot, I must say. Even stranger than this "gill" thing which the makers of the bra seem to feel is essential to my survival (or at least boobage-comfort), is who makes said non-drowning-protection-gear-stuff. Ok, take a wild guess. . . . . . Nope. . . . . . . . . Not even close. . . . . . . . . . Ok that's just stupid. Where did you get THAT idea? . . . . . . . . . . . Give up? . . . . . . . . . . . Get ready for it! . . . . . . . . . . SARA LEE! I shit you not. Sara Lee makes those big boxed bras for bountiful boobies!! I'm not sure about any of this, but here's my theory, folks. Sara Lee makes cheesecake. Cheesecake makes people fat. Fat people (in addition to people naturally blessed/cursed with huge quantities of titties) need big bras. Sara Lee makes big bras. Are we seeing a pattern here, people? Just asking. Time for bed. Much love! -Me Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: "See You In Hell" -Aiden

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August 24th, 2006

12:16 am Well today was a barrel full of fun at work (Target.) First off, I was scheduled to work food. After about an hour my eye hurt so badly that I could hardly stand it. It was boogering and watering and being all gross. I ended up taking out my contact but when I tried to put it back in, it got worse. They told me to go home, but I didn't want to. So I went home and got my glasses to see if that helped. But after the boogering and watering and bloodredness of my eye, I wasn't allowed to work with the food anymore once I got back. So I cashiered. Not too terrible. Since Emmy was there and all. ;) But my foot was still hurting. So when I got home, Ivan took an Xacto-Knife and cut it open to try to get rid of the offending piece of debris. I'm not sure if he succeeded. But my foot hurts a LOT more. Xacto-Knives hurt. Lots of pus came out of it. (the foot, not the knife. Sheesh.) It's definitely infected. And now it's cut open. Ow. My finger, which I cut open on glass last night, is also infected. My upper respiratory system is infected. The only thing I DON'T seem to have is herpes. heh. Let's keep it that way, ok? Though, on a semi-entertaining note, I did learn a lesson today about how ridiculous my apologies are. I was apologizing to Ivan for being a baby about his cutting my foot open and digging around in there. He put the knife down, looked at me, and said "Seriously. WHY are you apologizing to me? I'm stabbing you repeatedly in your already-sore foot with the sharpest object I can find, and you're sorry?" I felt pretty dumb after that. heh. I need to stop apologizing for everything. It's become a family joke. They count the number of times I apologize to people (for things completely not my fault) whenever we go out. Humph. I suck. Sorry. heh. Current Mood: owie Current Music: Ivan playing Civilization 3

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August 23rd, 2006

02:59 pm Grrr. I have an infected splinter in my foot, causing walking to be very painful. I have a cold/flu which is annoying and makes all my energy go bye-bye. My eye hurts to the point where I want to rip it out, because that might hurt less. I sliced my finger open last night on a piece of glass. By the time the bleeding stopped, there was blood on the walls, the floor, my face, my hair. And of course, my arms. Damn I'm clumsy. Ok. Well now I'm going to go to work and make food for hungry bitchy people. At least I'm not working at the hospital. Until tomorrow. Blech. xoxoxo Love, Me P.S. I still owe my wonderful captive audience the tale of "Squirrel Foils A Terrorist Plot" and "Helping Amy Move." In addition to this we also have the exciting installment "Squirrel Doesn't Go To School This Semester And Is Super Bummed Out About It" and "Squirrel Feeds Duckies!" Stay tuned. Same Squirrel channel, same Squirrel time. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: wizard of oz music (in my head, not sure why)

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